downpour.
i have a love/hate relationship with rain, mostly because it's the only thing that catches me when i'm running away-- looking to be found, really.
the rustling and rumbling of rain sounds exactly like the silence of pensiveness, it looks exactly like the kind of washing that makes the world look clean, when it's really not.
it's grey, and breathless and it falls like... like tears.
my heart hurts.
because the rain makes me think sometimesmof why i wasn't her for him, not the one whom he would have tried enough for.
or why he isn't him for me, really, when i truly wanted him to be. i think.
maybe.
don't worry: this passes, these kinds of thoughts.. it's just this stupid mocking pattering of rain and the loud thundering that gets me going. it's the sudden strike of lightning that makes it feel like the world's just taken an uncannily candid picture of you and you suddenly become vastly aware that you wouldn't have liked that shot.
you weren't smiling.
posted by teddi @ 2:44 AM
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"because the rain makes me think sometimesm [of] why i wasn't her for him, not the one whom he would have tried enough for.
or why he isn't him for me, really, when i truly wanted him to be. i think.
maybe."
The Dark Knight survey says:
Batman: "Sometimes, truth isn't good enough, sometimes people deserve more. Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded."
You'll get your due, don't worry. Semper Fi.
-raz
for some reason naman, i find rain comforting. but that's just me.
*hugs* i may not get the whole story but from what i can sense from your posts, i know how you feel.
we ALL deserve to have our faith rewarded, because shet naman, Mister-Guy-Above, SEMPER FI doesn't come easy. and you KNOW i do my damned hardest to not lose it. WE do our damned best.
so, shit yeah, semper fi.
really --unchararcteristic for me-- UNromantically speaking? ..because i've come too far to quit.
do you like me less? hehe :P
i know.. that's why years and years post jon jonsson, we still keep tabs on each other: coz we get it. :P
claire, you're a comfort, just like rain.. thank you :)
Hi. Stumbled on your blog by accident. Don't worry I'm not a spammer :) . I just wanna say you have to keep moving forward mmmkay? Karelate naman ako I can't help but comment. Listen to this I hope this helps (the perfect rainy day song):
http://www.imeem.com/xash/music/iz8Xy5IQ/moonpools_and_caterpillars_soon/
Keep you chin up kiddo. :)
I love the rain, too. Marami akong naiisip kapag umuulan. Ewan ko kung bakit. And I think a lot of "life-changing" events in my, well, life, took place with rain in the background. Labo, pero come to think of it, parang totoo.
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